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El dolor interno, es el dolor que  nadie ve, pero que siempre está presente. Es el que más duele, porque está dentro de nosotros. Es más fácil de ocultar, porque podemos disimularlo con otra cosa, desviar la atención a otro punto, pero no desaparece, por más que intentemos con todas nuestras fuerzas. Es el dolor que nadie o pocos conocen, porque no dejamos que los demás sepan cómo nos sentimos realmente. Es un dolor que nos hace débiles, vulnerables, porque se trata de algo demasiado profundo, casi rozando la esencia misma de cada uno. Ese dolor no se olvida fácilmente, permanece latente. A veces nos hace inseguros, nos hace perder la confianza en los demás y en nosotros mismos, nos va metiendo cada vez más adentro nuestro, creando una burbuja, alejándonos de a poco de los demás. Cualquiera no puede ayudarte, porque nadie entiende como nos sentimos realmente, no importa cuánto nos esmeremos en explicarlo, nunca se llega a entender en realidad cómo nos sentimos. Tenemos que solucionarlo nosotros mismo, aunque a veces parezca imposible, porque el dolor es NUESTRO. Y aunque queramos que desaparezca, no desaparece, solo se apacigua un poco, o duele menos, pero no desaparece, por mucho que intentemos… 

Welcome ♪

Did I come at a bad time?
Did I say something wrong?

And don't tell me I'm crazy, I wouldn't be writing this song
If I didn't feel, didn't feel this way.
Baby is it real, is it real? 
Don't say I'm not dreaming
Just tell me I'm not awake.


'Cause I just don't feel welcome in this house anymore
And it just doesn't feel as safe as it did only just two days before.
Why do we come this way? I'm not sure.
Woah, but the one thing is for certain, I don't want to do this anymore.

Did I disappoint you baby or did I just take too long.
'Cause honestly lately I can't tell whats going on
And I don't want to make this about me 
And I don't want to blame on you

But surely I've got something to do with you if you're feeling blue
'Cause I just don't feel welcome in this house anymore
And it just doesn't feel as safe as it did only just two days before.
Why do we come this way? I'm not sure.
Woah, but the one thing is for certain, I don't want to do this anymore. 
Did I come at a bad time?
Did I say something wrong?

And don't tell me I'm crazy,  I wouldn't be singing this song.
'Cause I just don't feel welcome in this house anymore
And it just doesn't feel as safe as it did only just two days before.
Why do we come this way? I'm not sure.
Woah, but the one thing is for certain, I don't want to do this anymore.

Mona Lisa ♪


Here's another pity
There's another chance
You tried to learn our lesson
But you can't
If we could burn this city
And the futures ending past
Without a change our lives will never last
We're going fast

You can sit beside me when the world comes down
If it doesn't matter then just turn around
We don't need our bags
We can just leave town
You can sit beside me when the world comes down

When will we do better?
When will we know how?
A man says from the sidewalk to the crowd
And we could change the weather
If we wanted to ourselves
And if we cant I guess we all need help
Cuz I need help

You can sit beside me when the world comes down
If it doesn't matter then just turn around
We don't need our bags
We can just leave town
You can sit beside me when the world comes down

We say, we do
The lies, the truth
And all I need is next to me
We say, we do
The lies, the truth
And all I need is next to me
We're going fast

You can sit beside when the world comes down
If it doesn't matter then just turn around
We don't need our bags
We can just leave town
You can sit beside me when the world comes down
You can sit beside me when the world comes down

Everything's An Illusion



I try to sleep but my eyes are open
I can't think cause my heart is broken
And there's a bottle right next to me
I'll down a few drinks just to take the pain away
I wanna say all the things i need to say
I won't lie, I'll just tell them honestly
If God can take a friend away from me
Then I can say all I want and he won't do anything
My tongue is weak and every time I try to speak I can't say nothing at all


Sleep well, my friend
There will be another moment we'll meet again
Just let it go
Sleep well, goodnight
You're something to remember
I wish that you were here by my side


I spend hours trying make it through the day
I don't know if i'll ever be the same
It's hard enough when you're all alone
In the city that you love, now atlanta's just a burial ground
My tongue is weak and every time I try to speak I can't say nothing,
Nothing at all
It's hard to think when losing someone only make you wanna scream
And now that you're gone


Sleep well, my friend
There will be another moment we'll meet again
Just let it go
Sleep well, goodnight
You're something to remember
I wish that you were here by my side


All the stained pieces, I can't believe this
A mother shouldn't witness her son die at twenty-four
I will hold my tongue for the rest of my life
I can't keep this up anymore


Sleep well, my friend
There will be another moment we'll meet again
Just let it go
Sleep well, goodnight
You're something to remember
I wish that you were here by my side

I think about you every single day
And every time I see your face
I wake and it brings me to tears
We hadn't spoken in years
We were close when we were young and naive
We grew up and we learned other things
You'll always be sweet 16


And you will always be perfect
You'll always be beautiful
Our hearts will never forget you
You didn't belong here
And it's become so clear
Why heaven called your name


I miss you and it still feels like I know you
I've got pictures of us side by side to show you
But it feels like I owe you so much more


And you will always be perfect
You'll always be beautiful
Our hearts will never forget you
You didn't belong here
And it's become so clear
Why heaven called your name
And it just doesn't seem right, was it really your time?
Are we dreaming?
We'll never let go of you
Wish you were here but it's becoming clear
That earth's just not the place for an angel like you
For an angel like you


You meant so much to so many
I'm not quite sure how to do justice to you
If they're ready to say goodbye
I know I'm not




You made the news and the papers for days and days
But it hardly seems fair
The whole world should know your name
I want them to know your name


And you will always be perfect
You'll always be beautiful
Our hearts will never forget you
You didn't belong here
And it's become so clear
Why heaven called your name
And it just doesn't seem right, was it really your time?
Are we dreaming?
We'll never let go of you
Wish you were here but it's becoming clear
That earth's just not the place for an angel like you


And now we must let you move forward
Our love lies with you
Our souls fly with you

Do you ever feel...?

Do you ever feel like nobody get's you?
Do you ever feel like you are alone in a world full of people?

Do you ever feel like nobody can love you? 
Do you ever feel like you're a stranger to everyone you know? Even to yourself? 


Well I feel in this way almost every single day. I feel lonely, left beside, even my family doesn't know me. They can't understand me, they think that I'm normal but they don't know what is under the shield I built. No one knows me that deep. And.. you know what? It scares me.. I'm afraid to grow up and still be alone... Alone with my thoughts, and they are not the best company I can have, but they are all I've got. 


I've learned to fix my problems on my own, but now I can't! I feel lost, I don't know wherever to run, I don't know what to do. I don't know who can help me, who would REALLY listening to me. I'd never had that kind of friend who'd be right next to me, really listening to me, supporting me while I cry on her shoulders, giving  me a strong hug when I need it and when I don't... I always wanted to have a bestfriend, but that kind of things doesn't happen to people like me... :/ 


Escorpio es un signo fijo y posee la capacidad de mantenerse leal y de amar. Su fanatismo, el que a veces vemos en la religión y la política, se puede colar en sus relaciones. Para ellos no existen los grises, o blanco o negro. De esa manera también se comportan en el amor. Pero su mayor problema como pareja, es que necesita controlar y con esto vienen los celos también. A veces lo muestra en tonterías como tener mucho orgullo para disculparse cuando ha hecho algo muy estúpido; o tratando de probarte en forma maliciosa y hacerte sentir que no eres indispensable en la relación. Además, le gusta instigar la pelea. No tiene respeto por alguien que no pelea y responde a los ataques. Después de todo ésta es su debilidad. Las peleas son habituales en las relaciones de los escorpiones.
Las crisis y las explosiones son juegos comunes. El resentimiento y hacerte pagar por cualquier insulto, sea real o imaginario, son las partes menos placenteras. Las ventajas: los escorpiones son capaces de entender realmente a las personas. Pierden muy poco, porque captan todas tus señales y pensamientos en el acto. Para ellos las relaciones no son algo ligero y de pasar el tiempo, siempre son profundas. Sabe leer lo que la otra persona necesita, y si no se sienten manipulados, las satisfará. Todos los signos de agua necesitan ser necesitados.

Whoever She Is - ♪



This is the part where you find out who you are
And these are the friends, those who've been there from the start
So to hell with the bad news
Dirt on your new shoes It rained all of May 'til the month of June


[...]


Every day in every way she will look the same
Every chance you used to have just seems to float away

To hell with your new shit
And whether or not you think you fit in

I'm Sorry - ♪


I'm fucked up again, I shouldn't drive tonight
But I keep thinking of you
I hurt you again
I shouldn't lie tonight
so the next few words are true


Never again, never again
no, We'll leave you high and
Never again, never again
no woah


Never again, never again,
no we'll leave you high and dry this time? I more than mean it


I'm sorry
I'm not what you wanted
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I let you down


I could use some poor excuse
cause the hardest thing to say


It's the hardest thing to say in the world
yeah, I'm sorry




I'm messed up again
thinking of times when I was lost in and you let me in
But I'm only human
and both you and I will know the way that this will end


So I say never again, never again, no
We'll leave you high and
Never again, never again
no woah
Never again, never again
no


We'll leave you high and dry? This time I more than mean it
yeah



I'm sorry
I'm not what you wanted
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I let you down



I could use some poor excuse
cause the hardest thing to say


Oh it's the hardest thing to say in the world


Yeah I'm sorry
I'm sorry


I'm sorry
I'm sorry


I'm sorry
I'm not what you wanted
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I let you down


I could use some poor excuse
cause the hardest thing to say


It's the hardest thing to say in the world
I'm sorry




SOLA en la multitud...


























Muchas veces me siento así, sola en una multitud. Como si me vieran sin mirarme. Como si estando no estuviera. Es una sensación fea, más cuando creías que contabas con gente REAL a tu alrededor, hasta que abrís los ojos y te das cuenta de que en realidad no hay nadie, y las pocas personas que sí están, están porque quieren algo de vos, porque les conviene estar ahí, no porque de VERDAD se preocupen por vos, porque no les importa, solo les importa lo que pueden obtener. Y cuando no necesitan nada, desaparecen así sin mas...